Initial Sketches and drawings with Helen Frankenthaler and Sonia Delaunay

Today to be completely honest I was a bit forced to work in the studio. I don't like working here because everything distracts me and I don't feel as comfortable as in my room, listening to my favorite music loud and singing to myself while creating. Unfortunately, I have to work on the initial sketches for my project. I didn't have time before and still somehow I can't do them having in my head let's say the final effect of the work.

however, I forced myself as well to create something like an abstraction based on my current feelings. Here is my initial sketch. I felt a little frustration, a little anger, a little sadness and a little anxiety because I don't like being judged for unfinished work. I don't like when people watch my beginnings because firstly it distracts me and secondly I prefer them to see the end result which I'm usually quite satisfied with. I know it's bad from the perspective of a future artist at the university, but I'm working on myself. For those pieces I used charcoal and pastels on paper. I know it looks a little bit childish but when emotions are in charge I'm not trying to think what it should look like, I just leave my hands free.

It reminds me a little bit of Helen Frankenthaler and her works. I love the way she uses colours and abstraction techniques and media to create her art. 

Beach Scene, 1961 

Oil and crayon on canvas 

122 1/8 x 93 5/8 inches 

(310.2 x 237.8 cm)

Seven Types of Ambiguity, 1957 Oil on unsized, unprimed canvas 95 1/2 x 70 1/8 inches (242.6 x 178.1 cm) Crystal Bridges Museum of Art, Bentonville, AK

In this second drawing, I wanted to use colors that have a more calming effect because I wanted to calm down. Soothe stress and nerves. The effect is not satisfactory for me and I do not like it at all. But most importantly, I achieved my goal.

The third drawing shows another change of my emotions and mood due to the terrible weather outside. Unfortunately, I had to leave the room and it rained on the way. No sun for several weeks, low pressure and rainy weather have a very bad effect on my well-being. I also wanted to try to reflect this state in this sketch.

Completely by accident in this sketch I managed to copy a little abstraction based on circles like Sonia Delaunay. I wanted to use circles to visualize abstract drops falling to the ground. A very big difference, however, is in the colors that Sonia has a lot of. It dominates the entire composition of all her works. My sketch was to visualize the gloomy mood caused by the weather and rain.

Sonia Delaunay

Sonia Delauney